Asking for Help

    For almost a year-round i kept this document and let it settle, up till i'm ready to post. It has been an extremely-weighty-sensitive topic since i was a kid. Thus, I wish I could attach to it over time. As an individual, parts of me likes to be surrounded by people yet parts of me hates it. Even worse, my subconscious frequently consider as if  i could do every single chores by myself without others' assist. I know, it IS a detrimental act. Fortunately and unfortunately, i started to realize it in the recent years. 

    Back then in 2017, my motorcycle broke down abruptly in 2 weeks. At that very time i was signing up for about 3-4 programs (Bina Desa committees, Students Orientation committees, Scientific writing competition, and other events). For the motorcycle was the only vehicle that i had, i was super devastated. Instead of asking my friends' hand, I decided  to use Gojek (an online conveyance application like Uber) to go to various places without telling everyone out (but my close friends: Fina & Sella that also didn't have any vehicle). Whereas, i'm pretty sure if i told my friends, they would probably help me out even for everyday picking up or dropping off they probably WOULD. Then again, i didn't tell them. Up until one of the dorm friends of mine found out and eventually she helped me to turn my motorcycle back on by sending it to the service centre.  

    The same circumstance occurred in 2019, in the middle of final test semester period. The night before the incident, i had eaten Pecel (Indonesian salad) that i bought in the street food stall, and i got severe diarrhea with vomit included. On the next day, i had already felt under the weather before i went to campus to take the Factory Design final course test. On my way to the university i almost fell from my motorcycle and about to faint. Luckily one of my friends knew about it and offered to pick me up the following days till the ill cured. 

    There are tons of occurrence happened over the years and I attempt to learn from the lessons that i experienced. As time goes by, I ought to be able to acquire that asking for help is not a sign of weakness but a sign that i am a sentient beings.